Well alright I'll start off with the (somewhat positive).
I spent my entire day at the culture centre. The concert itself...ugh...first half could've gone a lot better. Second half wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be though. Lots of people came, including most of my friends.
Ok now we start spiralling downwards.
A few couldn't come through no fault of their own (illness, family reunion dinners, etc), so I completely understand that. My sister, however, once again, didn't fail to disappoint. She came back the day before after making sure I had reserved a ticket for her...but yet...she didn't show up. Why?
I don't know. I haven't seen her since she came home Saturday afternoon until now. Her friends seem to be more important that her own family. And this isn't the first time that she's not been able to attend/forgotten about something of mine because of something else. My Senior recital, my Senior musical, and she almost didn't come for my High School graduation. The last time she actually made it for something of mine was my last concert with MYO in '04 because it was like 10 blocks from where she stayed.
Oh and Jacomo's lack of acknowledgement for my contributions. Now that I've actually sat and thought about it, I don't really care because SSA has showed its appreciation already (as did the SNCO players) but sitting on stage, and to continue sitting there...I felt very publically suanned. To the point where my playing of "Ha-Ha" was all over the place. Jacomo knew it too. He kept making faces with every note and bowing I missed. And believe me, I REALLLY missed them.
And I can't help but feel a bit apprehensive about what's going to happen next rehearsal because I'll actually get to find out who's made good of their word and left the group after this concert. Of course, there's the viola that left BEFORE the concert, so I should be grateful that these people at least waited until the concert was over. Don't get me wrong, I'm not holding any grudges against you all, I respect your reasons for wanting to leave, but I'm just worried that like 75% of the group is going to leave for all the same, valid reasons. Personally, and on behalf of the other ICs (who I haven't informed that you're leaving, because I'd hoped you'd tell them yourselves) Thank you all for your contributions and hard work.
Overall, the preparation for this concert could have been a lot better. People could have taken their instruments home and practiced more. Could have showed up for rehearsals more often. I know there are legitimate reasons for missing sometimes (positions in districts and commitments that come with them, family engagement, etc), but I'm sure there's a lot that don't come because they don't FEEL like it. Their lack of dedication is what has me irritated and worried for the July concert.
I mean...Jacomo has more or less agreed to do the July concert (hooo boy...), but I know that the ICs will be the ones to plan the repetoire for July, but I don't want to have to make easy, boring suggestions just because people are unwilling to put in the extra 2-3 hours a week. Just...ugh...frustration and apprehension.