b Saturday, April 28, 2007 a
So it's the same old debate again. Here I am sitting on the fence, debating what to do when I get back to school. It's the same old, identical debate. To the point where I don't even remember if I've written about it here anymore, so here it is (again).
I know for a fact that I want to be a doctor. Or do I really? I have my heart set on it, but unlike music, I haven't really had my hands on it yet, so how do I know I REEAAAALLY want to be a doctor? It just sort of hit me the other day when I was helping a friend with a medical school entry essay. Got me thinking: I don't have any of these experiences. No lifechanging experience to drive me towards wanting to go into healthcare. Just the thoughts in my head that I just wish to better my fellow man. Nurture, improve, and help them get better.
But what about music?
I love music. I can't live without my Mendelssohn and my Beethoven and my Dvorak (the list goes on). Then I'm torn in this respect as well. As of right now, I'm barely above the mean average of violin-playing skill (my old teacher wasn't really one to give me self-esteem about my playing). My fingers just don't seem to move precisely enough. Or quickly enough. My bowings are all funny. I don't like the sound that comes out of my violin much anymore. It could be due to a lack of serious practicing (my definition of serious being 3-4 hours a day). Or it could just be because my body is physically not made to move that rapidly. My physiotherapist says that all the muscles in my body are very stiff and tight. I believe this also applies to my fingers. Could this be my downfall as a violinist?
Yet I can see myself doing it for years on end. The process of learning and creating music to inspire and move the hearts of others. The struggle of learning something...and the tingle down your spine when you play it and it finally sounds right.
Is it worth it?
Is it worth it?
Conducting is also another option I have in my mind. However, I have absolutely no serious music theory experience and I don't know the first thing about serious conducting. Sure, I conduct SNCO and I've conducted a pit orchestra in the past, but do those really count for anything? If I go back to school for conducting, will I get laughed out of the program?
Practically speaking, musician is good for those with the passion, but a doctor would be able to support his family with a considerable amount of less stress.
In school, I'll definately take the pre-medical courses. Question is,
1.) Pursue my bio degree?
2.) Pursue my music performance degree?
3.) Pursue my conducting degree (masters is a minimum in states)?
4.) Double major?
All the above options end with my going to medical school after my first four (five years if I double major or if I opt for a masters in conducting). Or the last option?
5.) Just be a musician?
Will I choose my passion over dream?
Could I have some thoughts on this please?Labels: Rant
The angels whisper softly 8:36 PM
b Friday, April 20, 2007 a
Hello everyone...apologies for the lack of updates because HP took a ridiculously long time to fix my laptop, and on top of that my sister's computer can't seem to run this website properly. Hence, the lack of updates until now.
Not that I would have written about anything interesting at all anyways. I've been sick these past 2 days (flu virus, doctor says). What with the fever and sore throat and running nose, etc etc. But I think I should be alright by tomorrow.
Errr...oh yes. I'll be returning to the U.S. sometime in early to mid-August if I get approval from CPC to disrupt. Meaning I'll owe them about 18 days of service which I can easily pay off next summer holiday. School starts August 26th, so if all goes to plan, my last day of NS will be August 10th and I'll be off and flying within the following week.
Other than that, nothing major's really been happening (not that I can remember anyways). Will be hearing from me more often now that I have my laptop back!
~Guang YiLabels: Random
The angels whisper softly 9:46 PM